So… I mentioned in my last post that I was back. After having basically done nothing with this site for 4(!) years, I’d got over the things that troubled me, the things that were holding me back, stopping me from writing. All was good, and my creative (and other 😏) juices were flowing again. I even popped out a couple of little stories at the same time.
So yeah… it turns out the caller was inside the house the whole time. My circumstances weren’t the problem, although they almost certainly didn’t help, but the main issue really was me.
Cue some introspection, some therapy, some consultations, some money changing hands, and I now have my answer:
I have ADHD.
News that was as surprising to me then as it is obvious to me now in retrospect. It explains sooo much. The procrastination. Forgetting this site – and my published stories – even existed for weeks, months at a time. The fact that I have thirty seven unfinished stories in my archive and I keep starting new ones instead of finishing the ones I’ve got. All screaming ‘ADHD’ in letters too big for me to have noticed.
So am I upset by this revelation? Not really. A bit bummed out that I cruised through my first thirty years unaware and unmedicated, but no matter I’m here now. I have my little pills now and so far, they’re doing great. I can focus. I can plan. I can sit down and do boring things like editing. It’s not a magic cure-all, but even just knowing what I’m dealing with is a big step.
So in the coming weeks I’ll be digging those half-finished stories out of the archive, dusting them off and getting them finished and published. I hope you enjoy them!
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